I Am A Jerk

So… we were supposed to go to Joplin this morning for HurleyCon — we being Fraction and I. We were meeting a bunch of other KC Comics folks out there and driving back this evening. We arranged for Miss April to come look after Henry for the day, asked Xtop to walk the dogs… we were all set. Then I freaked out. It was to be my first day away from the boy for more than a couple of hours at a time and I… I just wasn’t ready, I guess. I had nightmares. I cried. I bailed.

Last minute. Very unprofessional.

Anyway, I feel shitty about it. Apparently some girls came by the con to see me and hearing that I hadn’t made it, turned around and left. I just heard about this and aside from being shocked and flattered, I’m also embarrassed and ashamed. So… I don’t know who you are, but if I disappointed you, leave me a comment here, or drop me an e-mail and I’ll figure something out. (Maybe I can get Niles to sign something for you too…?)

Poor Henry. I’m going to have to learn to be away from him for more than an hour at a time, but I think going from an hour or so to being away for a full day trip was just too much, too fast. I need baby steps.

Tomorrow I’m going to go work at a cafe for a couple of hours and see how that goes.

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Published:: 03.09.08 / 3pm

Category:: autobioboring

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Kelly Sue DeConnick relocated in 2002 from Brooklyn, NY to Kansas City, MO, where she now lives with her husband, writer Matt Fraction, Captain Applejack, Claude, Pablo, Ham and little Henry Leo. Professionally, DeConnick writes comics and adapts manga into English. Her credits include Kare First Love, Black Cat, Sexy Voice and Robo and Blue Spring. Most recently, she co-wrote 30 Days of Night: Eben & Stella with Steve Niles for artist Justin Randall. Contact: kellysue [at] gmail [dot] com. Follow Kelly Sue at http://twitter.com.

Rating: ? | hillary 03.09.08 / 5pm

You are not a jerk you are a first time mother. And anyone who knows you or even follows you will know you would never have bad intentions with anything! You are one of the nicest eggs around so don’t feel bad for being a caring mom!
Ok off the soapbox!

Rating: ? | Maki 03.09.08 / 10pm

Hey, it’s totally understandable! Don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s a special time in HL’s life. Why make yourself uncomfortable and miss these early moments? You’ll continue your work and there will be other cons in the future for your fans to catch. Baby steps, Kelly Sue!

Rating: ? | kwip 03.10.08 / 6am

Yeah, it’s not like you blew off the Con to smoke cigarettes behind the high school or anything. In 16 years when it’s all you can do to get HL to spend five minutes of his day with you, you’ll look back at these times and be grateful you took every minute you could squeeze to be with him. Oh, see, now I’m going to start quoting Harry Chapin at you…

Rating: 5 | Theron 03.10.08 / 7am

It’s rough. Intellectually, you know it’s not big deal to be away. Emotionally, it can tear you apart. It’s tougher to have it all than portrayed in the media, eh?

Rating: 1 | T-2 03.10.08 / 11am

Sweetie, I understand. I understand the angst and terror leaving HL, but I also understand about feeling shitty abou it. It’s gonna happen. If it didn’t, THEN I’d begin to worry.

When he’s sixteen, it’ll be a different story.

If need help during SDCC this July, the offer to Henry sit stands.

Rating: ? | Aman Chaudhary 03.10.08 / 6pm

I get where you’re coming from. I would totally be the same way!

Rating: ? | JasonAHurley 03.11.08 / 12am

NO worries. I totally understand, as does the Nate Dawg. Kids are very slightly more important than comics, so it’s all god.

Rating: ? | Jen Van Meter 03.12.08 / 11am

Hey Sweetie–

Lousy way to finally take a moment to say congratulations and hey, how ya’ doing, but I have been popping by once in a while to see you you all are getting along.

Anyhoo, wanted to tell you I fully understand the conflict. I have tried it all ways: skipping things to be with the kids and feeling unprofessional and crappy about it, taking the kids with me and feeling crappy when they got sick after, were overwhelmed by the scene, or trying to let other folks watch them for me at an event and feeling crappy when sitter or child did not fully enjoy the experience.

It’s hard. The choices are none of them easy, and you will do best if you follow your gut.

Love to you all, way late.

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